It began in the kitchen in my town of birth, Hobro. I believe there had been some comment about Freemasonry on the telly. My older brother asked if my father hadn’t been a member – to which he answered, that was something he was unable to discuss. That was so strange … and very enticing. I guess I was about 9. I also found his dress coat around this time, and there was something special and solemn about it. In that sense it was an early fascination, but it was never something we talked about, and Freemasonry became part of a broad fictitious and romantic idea about a brotherhood of ancient, esoteric secrets and any number of conspiracies.
Early in the Nineties the subject resurfaced – possibly prompted by a expository Norwegian book (‘Frimureri’, Dag Sverre Mogstad) and the bicentennial anniversary of the Danish Order of Freemasons and the publication that marked the occasion (‘I Guld og Himmelblaat’). For instance I visited the municipal offices to view the building plans for the provincial lodge in Aarhus, and try to guess where the secret rooms would be – a little bit silly, but also quite fun. And then in 1995 I wrote the roleplaying scenario called ‘Barcley’s Brothers’, very much inspired by Alan Moore’s comic ‘From Hell’ (in turn inspired by Stephen Knight’s ‘Jack the Ripper: The Final Solution’). It was neither very good, nor very informed. My presentation at the game convention, Fastaval ’95, was pretty nice, though: I wore my father’s dress coat (unfortunately it was stolen on that very same convention), had a black table cloth, candles, a skull, etc. – very moody.
A couple of years later I wrote a paper on Gnosticism (when graduating as a teacher). I had thought about connecting the subject and the Ancient Mysteries to Freemasonry. So it became an opportunity to visit the Order of Freemasons in Aarhus, where I spoke to two members, both nearing their 30 year anniversary. They were very forthcoming and made an extremely positive impression. They were a bit like a married couple, bickering cheerfully over my questions. They showed me a lodge room and the beautiful light in the ceiling – something which one of them thought was a bit much. They both seemed to hold the opinion that it would be a good idea for me to consider becoming a Mason, but I was still young.
My perception of Freemasonry has gradually become more informed, and while it might have lost some of the allure and sense of drama of fiction, it has proved to be so much more. At this point in time, the Internet had had its big breakthrough, and a wealth of sources had suddenly become readily available. In 1999 I took a tentative step and contacted Le Droit Humain since their foundation of “Liberty, Equality, Fraternity” spoke favourably to me: they accept women, and recognise all religions. But at the end of the day, I didn’t feel quite ready. Mainly because I still had reservations (prejudices) about Freemasonry, and I knew I would have to conform to fit in, and I wasn’t sure that I would be able to.
But it did become concrete enough that I put up a few “markers” and promised myself to take another look at it, when they had been achieved. Another five years passed, during which the subject kept simmering beneath the surface …
[Date of original post: May 7, 2005]